mY WoRLd..SaTisFaCtioN..T3nD3rNeS$..gOOd r3pUt@tIoN..H@PPin3sS..OPtimiSm..t3nDeRNeSs..ExciT3meNt..


Tuesday, April 26, 2005
B U K A N

Tak takut pada HUJAN...
Tak takut pada RIBUT...
Tak takut pada MALAM...
Tak takut pada SAKIT..
Tak takut pada JATUH...
Tak takut pada LAPAR...
Tak takut pada MISKIN..
Tak takut pada SEPI...
Tak takut pada DUKA...
Hanya takut pada HATI yang MATI...
dan PENCIPTA HATI MATI...

Posted at 07:50 am by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  




Wednesday, April 13, 2005
~g0d's CreaTion~



nite view from the balcony of our house..in rizuan..beautiful huh?



sunset..=)



day view..see the twin towers!!
all these pics are taken bye suhana...my luvly roommate=P who is
also our camera woman..hehe

Posted at 08:49 am by farrahannan
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
W H E N I F E E L L I K E D Y I N G….

W H E N   I   F E E L   L I K E   D Y I N G….

 

D o   I   k n o w ?

T h e r e ’ s   n o   p o I n t   t o   C R Y

W h e n   I   f e e l   l I k e   I ’ m   L O S T

T o t a l l y   l o s t

 

D o   I   k n o w ?

T h e r e   I s   a c t u a l l y   s o m e o n e

I n   m y s e l f ..

 A n o t h e r ‘ m e’

 

A   p e r s o n   t h a t  c a n   c o m f o r t   m e

C a r e   f o r  m e

G I v e   m e   m o t I v a t I o n

W h i s p e r   t o   m y s e l f

 

A   p e r s o n

T h a t   I s   s t r o n g e r   t h a n   m y s e l f

W h o m   I   c a l l e d   a s   ‘ m y  I n n e r   s e l f ”

 

S o..

W h e n e v e r   I   f e e l   l I k e   d y I n g

I   w I l l   a s k   f o r   ‘ m y  I n n e r  s e l f ‘

B e c a u s e   I   k n o w

S h e   w i l l  a l w a y s    b e   t h e r e   f o r   m e .


haha...poem mase ngah boring...xtau nak tulis ape...


Posted at 07:37 pm by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  

KASIH BAPA SEPANJANG MASA..KASIH IBU MEMBAWA KE SYURGA


 


KASIH BAPA SEPANJANG MASA,KASIH IBU MEMBAWA KE SYURGA

 

Lima puluh empat tahun dulu

Aku pun lahir

Ke dalam keluarga daif

Yang terwaris turun temurun.

Orang tuaku hanya tahu

Menoreh getah dikala pagi

Menanam padi sebelum senja.

Tidak pernah bersekolah mereka.

 

Orang tuaku sering memikir

Apakah aku ini anaknya

Akan terus mewarisi

Kejerihan hidup sepertinya juga?

 

Empat puluh empat tahun dulu

Usiaku baru sepuluh

Dan orang tuaku masih muda belia.

Berkata bapaku

Di kebun getah bukit Kepat:

 

“jika anakanda ingin hidup sempurna

Dan menjadi manusia berguna,

Tidak menorah getah seperti kami

Dan seluruh keluarga kita sepanjang masa,

Kau anakku mesti tekun belajar

Hingga sampai ke universiti.”

 

Budak kampong di usia seperti aku

Mengerti apa hal universiti?

Bapa hanya tahu

Universiti itu tempat berkumpul

Cerdik pandai dan manusia berguna

 

Tiga puluh empat tahun dulu

Aku pun menjejakkan kaki ke kampus universiti

Sebagai pelajar

Kononnya cerdik lagi pandai.

Orang tuaku yang masih menotreh getah

Lapang hati tiada terkira.

 

Tertepa di kepala satu harapan.

Kata bapa,mereka selalu mengirim doa

Agarku lekas jadi orang berguna.

 

 

Tiga puluh tahun dulu

Sampailah berita

Yang aku sudah lulus jadi doktor

Orang tuaku yang masih lagi menorah getah

Sujud syukur pada ilahi.

Tahulah mereka

Yang aku tak perlu lagi

Menjejak mereka menorah getah.

Orang tuaku sungguh bangga

Kerana pandai mendidik anak.

 

Enam belas tahun dulu

Ketika aku diangkat menjadi professor

Juga dekan fakulti

Bapa pun membungkus mata pisau torehnya

Dan ibu,mata ketam tuai padinya

Dengan secebis kain semutar bapa.

Lalu disangkutnya pisau dan ketam tuai

Pada paku di dinding dapur

 

Orang tuaku mengucapkan selamat tinggal

Pada kebun getah

Pada sawah padi,buat selamanya

 

Tiba-tiba

Segunung padah melanda tiba

Gelap malam pun turun

Menyerkup hidupku

Dengan gundah gulana.

Bumi kupijak rekah tanahnya

Aku pun jatuh ke perlembahan hina.

 

Di saat aku hilang maya

Kau datang, ayah bondaku.

Kau membawa secangkir air penawar tujuh warna

Dan sebatang dian yang bernyala.

 

Anakku,kalau rebah dirimu

Terlanggar batu,dan luka jari kakimu,

Kulit berlumur,darah pun menyembur,

Bangun kau anakku!

Bangun kau anakku!!

Jangan gentar kau pada batu.

Dengan tanganmu

Baling musuhmu itu sejauh mahu”

 

Kau pun basuh arang

Yang terconteng di mukaku.

Kau pulangkan maruahku

Yang telah sekian lama hilang.

Di cahaya dian,aku pun kembali berdiri

Mengukur diri.

Dua tahun lalu

Aku pun menjadi Timbalan Naib Canselor

Penjaga  ank-anak watanku di Menara

Adaka;lanya aku bahagia melihat

Mereka berjaya,berakhlak mulia.

Adakalanya aku berduka,melihat mereka hilang punca.

 

Seminggu lalu

Ketika aku diangkat menjadi Naib Canselor

Air mataku menitis meniti pipi,perlahan

Tiada lagi tertahan.

Bagaimanakah akan ku ceritakanpada ayah bondaku,

Betapa sekian lama aku mengembara

Dalam keringat dan air mata

Berpayungkan doa mereka sepanjang masa,

Kemudian akhirnya

Sampai juga aku di muara?

 

Aku pun segera pulang ke tanah asal keturunanku

Di kesunyian kebun getah

Di tepian sawah

Ke rumah orang tuaku,si penoreh getah,si penanam padi:

 

              Yang buta huruf sedari lahir

               Yang buta angka sedari kecil

               Tetapi yang cerah mata bagai bulan purnama

                Yang terang hati bagaikan suria pagi

 

Kupulang ke rumah si buta

Yang ku panggil ibu dan bapaku.

Yang mengajarku:

Setajam-tajam mata pisau toreh mereka

Tajam lagi si mata pena

 

Kuziarahi orang tuaku

Yang semakin tua dimakan usia.

Kami menatap bersama

Pisau toreh ketam tuai di dinding yang kaya jasa

Yang masih berkelubung mata

Dengan kain semutar bapa.

Kata orang tuaku,dengan matanya tepat ke mukaku:

 

 

“Ceritakanlah pada anak-anakmu

Benarlah,kasih ayah sepanjang masa

Kasih ibu membawa ke syurga”

 

Ku cium tangan orang tuaku

Dengan hujan

Yang turun dari kelopak mataku

 

“Ayah dan bonda

Dian yang kau berikan padaku dulu

Sentiasa ku simpan rapi

Setiap kali malamku menjadi gelap

Dan anak-anakku menangis takutkan kegelapan,

Aku nyalakan dian pemberianmu itu

Pasti malam menjadi terang”

 

 DI TULIS OLEH PROFESOR DR HASHIM YAACOB

NAIB CANSELOR UM
SEMPENA KEMASUKAN PELAJAR-PELAJAR BARU SESI 2004

 

 


Posted at 07:12 pm by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  




Friday, April 08, 2005
mY woRLd

im back!!!of course 2 my LUVLY n BELOVED HOUZE!!!!!yeay!!this is all  what i want rite now...nuthing else...be in dis house is like be in a heaven!!!huhuuu..heh..when there are people to look after me...2 care 4 me..when there is mum to cook delicious meal 4 me!!!!yeay!!!its such great enuf 4me..becoz i miss my bed n my room soooo much!!my luvly teddy bears..n everythin  in that room..
             Last 3days,i fell sick during the exam(trial paper)..no one know bout dis i guess,becoz i dont like when people look at me when im sick..at first i just got flu but unluckily it became worsened...fuhh~~~consequently i cannot study 4 the next day's paper..wuuu~~im soo afraid to sit 4 da paper...and its chemistry
paper1@ 2 and math 6..i wonder how my marks would be..hopefully it doesnt being affected so much,though..
             Hrmm..anyway i think i fell sick bcoz i miss dis house so much!!its not a very long duration since i didnt go back home actually...just 4 2 month...hrmm..2 month..not long huh???i also dont know..but its just enuf to make me feel SICK!!n yesterday i ate soo much becoz i havent see rice 4 FOUR days...when actually i didnt have 2 suffer myself...whoahaha...sumtimes i also didnt understand my ownself...hrm..i just did wut i want though..nuthng else...no idea...b4 i start merepeks on other weird things...maybe i should go...chiowzzz

Posted at 11:38 pm by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  

when im hurting

Listen with ur heart....

WHEN I'M HURTING

It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.


It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.


It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.


If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.


It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.


But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I hurt alone.



Posted at 10:54 pm by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  




Friday, March 04, 2005
frienz~



DIS IS DEDICATED TO ALL MY FRENS...
I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
                from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.


Posted at 08:14 pm by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  




Wednesday, March 02, 2005
Jogging n healthy lifestyles

what is actually the meaning of running?i luv to run..in my life..there were sooo many times i've ran..from everything!!!
i've ran from tazkirah after asar prayer...
i've run from 'ceramah jatidiri in school..and consequently i've been punished..
TO STAND IN FRONT OF THE STAGE DURING ASSEMBLY...~~~wakaka~~~that is interesting you know??during that time..i was still in form 4 and bcoz of that..i became quite famous...ahaha...that is just a small portion of memories that i still keep inside my mind and i will always remember..i dont know why..i just like the way i am..being in an islamic school...i've been teached..and i learnt that it is not good to act like that...and i know...everybody knows that...some people blamed me(especially the 'alim type' one..but...it happened accidentally..i did not mean to hurt or trouble anyone...it just happened like that...so,i'm soooo sorry..for those people..especially all the KPs(ketua pelajar) and my classmates...for all my friends(yg same2 nakal ngan aku)...we just want to have some fun,rite???
release tension...aftre a very long day studying..nakla jalan2 jap...~~ahaks~~
          anyway...i know and i realise that we have rule for everything...and i just want to run in my own path

Posted at 11:47 pm by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  

oh god...please forgive me...

Pn Nurfaiza(PM 14 chemistry's teacher) returned our test paper today..just now!!wut da h8*K? majority of the class failed!!!sadly,i've to admit...one of them is ME!!oh my god??it is not easy for me to admit this...as i NEVER fail in ANY exam before this..uoh~~ho...this may sound like i'm boasting!!no...i'm not..before this i kept telling my friends(especially in secondary school) that science subject are NOT difficult..but now i have to admit.it just like'WUT YOU GIVE N SAY YOU'LL GET IT BACK!!!'s law..A level is not easy..especially A2..and i know i have to put sooo much effort on it...To get 5As in my exam~~~that will come in just 2 MONTH TIME!!!^^^^^^^^^(n then wut da h*ck am i doing in front of this com??.)
         Its not that i did not study..i did study for this paper..i think i've put enuf effort on it..it is just dat when i receive the paper?? suddenly everything blurr(bkan pengsan)...macam x penah blaja je..
i don't know what words should i put on it..no..no...I STARTED IMAGINING..'how if this things happen during the exams?oh...no!!!~~~please god..save me...I can't even imagine if this happen...
          The truth is...(and i have to admit)..my sleeping time,my chit~chat time,my eating time...and my wutsoever time.. is longer than my study time.please hanan..put on effort...put a goal..and accompish it...AND I WILL...I PROMISE TO MYSELF... and anyone who read my blog...you're the 'saksi' that im NOT cheating..(n then wut da hell are you doing in front of his comp)!!!
ok...i shall go..i've to prove to miss nurfaiza...i WONT FAIL AGAIN.
                
    

Posted at 11:09 pm by farrahannan
:~My minD saY DiS~)  




Tuesday, March 01, 2005
WheN i'M HurTINg..

if i feel hurt...would there be sumone 2 comfort me?
if i feel hurt...would anyone be there to share my feelings???
if i feel hurt...would anyone listen to me?
....................would anyone cry 4 me?
....................would anyone hugz me..so dat i feel safe..
when i have a problem...would anyone solve it 4 me?

would sumone come and tell me...dear,you're not n never alone...
THE TRUTH IS...YOU NEVER ALONE...IF U BELIEVE...

            ALLAH IS ALWAYS THERE FOR U

to comfort u..
to share your feelings..
2be a very good listener..
owh my goodness...im never alone..

Posted at 02:21 am by farrahannan
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    enaez...me..and nieza wif vincent at da back...(sesat..muahaha)
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    it takes me 5minutes to swallow a pill..sigh*
    i am very gud in forgetting ways to particular place!!even from Malacca to KL too~sigh* again=p
    i am addicted to choc n cofee (both started wif c-so wut?ahaha)..luckily no in the'drug dependent stage'..heh
    i buy pirate cd..hehe..its CHEAP!!really..
    i can spend the whole day in mph,reading magazine n storybooks..
    i like comics sooo much.i can skip meal only 2 finish reading it.
    i can fell sick if i miss sumone so much esp my mum/dad/family..n also my bedroom..
    i have eating disorder whenever i went back to my hometown..i will eat a lot!! really!sigh*
    i believe in gud attitude n behavior
    i have a big'one piece 'poster on my desk
    i can cook!!really!but only simple one maa..haha
    i can spend the whole day/night in front of the computer..whoa
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